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Have just made a very big decision that will change just about everything about my life as it looks right now. But while I am pretty much scared shitless I am also very excited about what the future will bring. I mean at this point I can do pretty much what ever I want. Don’t exactly know what that is at the moment so I’m going to try what ever comes my way.

I had to make a few sacrifices for this and esp. one hurts more than the others but I know everything will be ok. This is something I need to do for myself. And right now that’s the most important thing. I need to feel good. I need to feel ok.

Made a big decision today something that will affect my whole life and people around me. Parts of it makes me happy, some parts make me scared and others just very sad. But it had to be done.
Don’t really know what will happen now but the coming weeks will be busy. Phone calls to make, letters to write and send. So many things to plan and figure out.

Just had to tell the neighbours to shut up for I don’t know which time this week. They are playing loud music late every night of the week and no one seems to mind in this stupid building but damn the poor kid that got guitar hero and the drum set. Damn him for using it during the daytime disturbing people!
Hello!!?? So it’s ok to make noises during the night but not the day? Makes so much sense! Idiots!

Pernilla said I should switch and go for number two instead… *lol*

Well am very grateful for this photo I must say :)

Thank you very much! ;)

I want to go and see Avatar again. That movie was amazing and I must say one of the better movies I’ve seen. One of the best movies I have seen even.

I want to once more escape to the beautiful world of Pandora…

Tired but cant sleep. Seems like my insomnia is once again back and from my experience I know that it will get worse before it gets better.

Have tomorrow off work and will try my very best to get thru the pile of things that need to be done. Trying to keep my head above the water here and it’s a constant struggle.

Once again there is a snowstorm outside my window.

Some light in the darkness...

Am starting to feel sick again and yesterday I threw up for no reason. Barely had any voice since Saturday and feeling slightly feverish all the time. Whole body hurts and have an annoying headache. Went home early from work today and I’m glad I have tomorrow off as I doubt I would be in any state to go in tomorrow.

Have a few things to do around the flat tomorrow and they are also coming over to look at a few things that are getting exchanged and fixed in the flat. Must say it’s a bit annoying to have a private landlord. Things take forever to get fixed (if ever!) and he is a little cheap ass. Once again greedy people. Only looking out for themselves. I mean if you buy flats and rent them out you should in some way have some kind of feeling for service. Otherwise why the hell do you do it? Well again to make money… *sigh*

Am starting to feel sick again and yesterday I threw up for no reason. Barely had any voice since Saturday and feeling slightly feverish all the time. Whole body hurts and have an annoying headache. Went home early from work today and I’m glad I have tomorrow off as I doubt I would be in any state to go in tomorrow.

Have a few things to do around the flat tomorrow and they are also coming over to look at a few things that are getting exchanged and fixed in the flat. Must say it’s a bit annoying to have a private landlord. Things take forever to get fixed (if ever!) and he is a little cheap ass. Once again greedy people. Only looking out for themselves. I mean if you buy flats and rent them out you should in some way have some kind of feeling for service. Otherwise why the hell do you do it? Well again to make money… *sigh*