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I am not sure as to what I should write about this time. Not mush has happened but at the same time loads of things have been going on.

Still unemployed and looking for work but am still hopeful although my thoughts about the unemployment office have not grown better. The girl that I meet the first time managed to screw up just about everything and misinformed me, gave me the wrong papers or no papers when needed. So at my second visit I and the person I meet this time had to go over everything once again. Also I had to wait for over 2½ hours for my turn!!  I’m glad I don’t have to go back there anymore but can keep in contact via the phone from now on.

Thinking a lot about what I want to do and if there is something special that I would like to aim towards. There are a few things but for now it will stay in my mind.
Also the fact wetter I will stay in this town or if I will move and if so where. Everything is possible at this point and I am free to do what ever I wish. It feels good.

I wonder where that man is, the man that is far from perfect but at the same time perfect for me. I have had a few flings these past two years but what it done really is to have me question the kind of men that are out there. And what women seem to want from men these days. Scary!
I want a MAN not some metro sexual pansies. All this talk about gender equality has destroyed a lot. Men are men, women are women and there are things we can never be equal in nor should we. Call me old fashion or whatever but this is how I feel and what I believe in.

But now it’s time for bed I believe…