xdeadmemories

So it’s christmas time again. I always have very mixed emotions about this holiday. I both hate it and love it. I want to have, create, my own family to celebrate with, have kids and see the joy in their eyes.  I don’t care that much about the gifts… For me it’s the decorations, the snow and cold. How wonderful the nature looks covered in snow. Seeing the moonlight reflected in this white wonder on a cold clear winter night. Those are the things I love.

This year all I want is peace and a chance to recover, feel safe and relax. But I fear I will not get a chance to do any of this. I will request and beg for this but will as always not be heard or understood.

All I want is to feel safe…