Chaos!!
Been crap at updating this blog lately. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I barely can get my own life to go forward. Cant say that writing here really comes first on the list to do.
There are a few things that I feel I am very thankful for right now and that are the few friends that I really got left. Some apparently cant handle that fact that I’m not feeling good or they are just way to shallow and to caught up in themselves that as soon as things don’t relate to them they move on.
Like the sad people that took advantage of my generosity this summer and then strangely just disappeared out of my life as soon as they got what they wanted. Barely a thank you or any words at all after.
Then I’m glad for others that are in my life that really care. They might not be many but atleast they don’t take off and run or disappear as soon as things get hard.
Esp one person has been there not maybe in person but in spirit and has seen the worse and yet stayed. Has listened and just been there. Ronnie you are my angel and I do not know what I would have done without you!! Even when I have been so far down that all I could really produce was darkness and tears you stayed and you listened and kept reminding me of the wonders in life and things that we both love and all these different reasons to keep fighting.
Love you Ronnie!
But I am happy and lucky to know that I got atleast a few true and real friends.
