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This must be the manliest and sexiest man walking this earth! The body and the man is just perfect!

This according to me is manly and very attractive. And now I am just talking about looks. Going to be that shallow right now :P

On a happier note… Last night I went out with Fanny, Amanda and Sandra for AW and it was very spontaneous and fun evening. Went to a place just across the street from work for some dinner and drinks. Shared a lot of laughs and weirdness and some deep secrets ;)

A very nice evening and just what I needed right now...

So these past days have been… well I dont really know how to describe them.  First I was sick and then the chaos with the subway, I’m glad I was sick then. But nothing compares to the news I got on Tuesday. Something that turned everything upside down and it has been in my mind constantly since I found out.

People all make mistakes in life and I will never judge you for what you have done nor will I stop caring. I wish there was something I could do for you some way to show you that I care, that there are others that do and that we are worried. We want nothing but the best for you and we want you to get the help you need.

At the moment I cant talk to you and there is no way to get to you but when the time come I will be here.

Have seen now how horrible the media really is and how they twist things and take things out of context. How they judge and make their own assumptions of things. And it all just triggers others that continue with the slander. How can people be so cruel? Humans are horrible, what is wrong with people? What kind of twisted minds and priorities do they have? They judge all but never stop for a second to look upon themselves. Nothing is ever good enough; just want more and more and more… greedy filthy creatures!

But that was not the point here. Just worry for you so much right now and I hope that you do no do anything stupid. You are too good for that. It could just has well have been me. You spoke words I never dared to let escape from my lips. You expressed feelings I keep hidden deep inside. You wrote about thoughts I will only keep to myself.

You are special and you are uniqe!!

I know this entry might seem confused and a bit messy but that is how I feel right now...

So stayed at home from work yesterday. I didn’t have anything booked and was feeling pretty crap.  Seems to be that I still have some bug that is refusing to either go away or break out fully. Quite annoying! Also feeling sleepy all the time and still cant seem to sleep properly at night. Keep waking up over and over again.

Am trying to put together a CV and damn I’ve done a lot of things since I finished college! Seem like I’ve not been really unemployed for more than a few days or so in between everything. The only thing I find hard is the fact that I suck at dates and years so it’s a bit of a hassle to fit everything together.  I especially have problems with years and placing things within the right year.

Just found two things at IKEA that I really want. Would help a lot as I have my laptop in the living room on the table by the sofas and that is not really comfortable.
This is what I’ve found...

Linn was sweet enough to do some touch ups on my haircolour today and Sandra cut my bangs. Did something completely new and am still trying to get used to it but they say it looks good.

Also bought everyone some semlor (Swedish pastry) and they were extremely tasty.

Well better get back to my counting… Looking forward to work tomorrow :)

Was reading an article from the Daily Express earlier. In it was an interview with Matt Goss were he was talking about his days in Bros with Luke and Craig, and how Liza Minnelli introduced him to Frank Sinatra and Sammy Davis Jr at a party, Matt also talked about his new show at Caesars Palace in Las Vegas.

http://mattgoss.la/2010/02/15/matt-goss-said-im-hoping-to-open-gossy-rooms-worldwide/

And I must say that I envy men. He is closing in on 42 and can still say things like “I defiantly the marrying kind and I’d like to have kids one day”. That for sure is something we women cant say. Not fair but what can you do…

And damn he looks good, very good for being almost 42 ;)

It’s past 2 am and I know I should be in bed sleeping but that is not as easy as it might sound. Had a few days now, well quite many really, that I’ve not be able to sleep until really late. Or one should say really early as it’s been around 4 am when I’ve finally been able to rest and drift off…

Dreamland is my salvation right now…

Looking forward to a new week, have a few things planned and the most important is the Rammstein concert on Saturday! Looking forward to seeing them live once more.

Well I am going to try now and see what happens…  Dreamland is waiting…

So been a few hectic weeks. Suddenly my life that normally is very calm has been full of different activities. The ones most worth mentioning are the fun evenings out eating with Pernilla. We have managed to talk about, well just about everything.
Last time we had a long conversation about what we like in men (well for her boys *lol*) and we both agree that we are a bit old fashioned. Want a man that makes us feel like a woman. Someone that is a gentleman. For example such a thing as eating out. First you talk about what you want but then the man is the one that orders the food. Holds the door and things like that. He will make you feel like a woman and you will make sure he feels like a man. But this does not mean that we are not equal in any way for ofcourse we are. I am very much for keeping the gender roles and I believe that can be done as well as us being equals. Then there are and will always be certain things men can do or are better at then us women and the other way around.
I am also one of those crazy women that would not mind (if it is possible) to be a stay at home mom. Then working part time as the kids are growing up. Or choosing a kind of work that ables me to work from home.

Other things that I have amused myself with lately is going to the cinema. First I went and saw Snabba Cash with Pernilla. And I must admit that even though I am not a fan at all of Swedish movies this one was very good. Well worth seeing and am looking forward to the next two.

Then Amanda and I went (finally) and saw Avatar in 3D and I have to say it’s one of the best movies I have seen ever! I have to go see it atleast one more time while it is playing in the cinema. And it makes me ashamed to be a human (as does a lot lately)! I had somewhat the same feeling after watching Hellboy II
What is wrong with people!!?? When did they stop to see the beauty in the world? When did they become so greedy? And why does money seem to be the only important thing? And it is never enough! They just want more and more and it never ends. What about the simple yet important things in life? All forgotten about…

All this has now made me depressed… Need something to cheer me up… ;)

Feeling much better now....  Night night :)